Update to the update

So I guess it's been long enough. A lot has gone on in the last month. I'm still trying to sort it all out. Some confusing and difficult moments led to some interesting outcomes.

Starting with work. Things are great. I'm finally getting immersed in the processes and performing evaluations. There is always a learning curve, so it is taking me some time to get going. Overall though, I feel I'm doing pretty good. I've made it a point to mention how frustrating it is that very few of our processes have been documented or organized in a manner that ensures everyone is following the same road. I've been meeting my goals, and exceeding others. My desire for positive change has already led to new processes, and as my boss put it, "You're already proving to me why I hired you. Great job!" I am very pleased with how things are moving along, and can see a long and happy career with this company. That is of course, once some stability is created amidst the chaos. Disorganization is a curse with them, but everyone is working very hard to get the processes and policies built to create a more standardized working environment.

Last month, Dad encouraged me to consider writing a book. I love to write, and know I'm decent at it, so the idea is very tempting. I'm still considering topics, but have the support of friends locally to help me with content for one specific topic I'm slowly settling on.

For my Birthday, I went to the coast(I'll provide pics and stuff later on. Don't have my camera.). Some random things came up between Niceguy and I, that finally brought my courage out, and I was ready to walk away. We finished out the weekend, and upon returning, had "THAT" conversation. Niceguy was unwilling to let me walk out of his life without a fight, which honestly surprised me. After talking things out for at least an hour, he pops off, and says he wants to be exclusive. I am still in shock, and never actually responded to him. I even asked him for several days if he was sure, since the decision was so sudden. He was convinced this was the right step for us, so I let it go, and things have been great.

He's back to being affectionate, and sweet. We've spent nearly every minute together outside of work, and I haven't felt this good in a long time. Trust is still an issue with me, as he's been caught in lies. I understand why he lied, but am having trouble getting past the fact that he did it at all. This is going to take time for me, and he understands that. For the moment though, I am enjoying the closeness I have missed so much. He is a wonderful and amazing man, and I can't imagine my life without him. I don't want to.

Lil bits---

Money- still extremely tight. More so than in previous months. I can only hope, that after the move, things will calm down enough for me to get my bills in check.

Moving- I'll be moving in with Niceguy at the end of May when his roommate moves out, and am excited and anxious. This was supposed to be a roommate situation, but appears things have changed slightly. There is a tiny chance his roommate will not move, but at this point, my notice is in, and I'm moving. I'm still considering a rental home next year after my bills are in line, and Niceguy's lease runs out.

Going to be moving a ton of stuff into storage next weekend, as Niceguy's apartment is smaller than mine, and I'm not comfortable keeping a lot of my "history" there. The building is old, and I am concerned about the wiring. So my dining room, dolls, figurines, and memorabilia stuff will be in a storage unit.

We're going to be spending most of this weekend working on his resume and teaching him Office, so he can get a job with the company I work for. It's about time he gets paid better for the amazing job he does. After all, he did used to be one of my employees, and I am fully aware of how awesome he is. Biased or not, the man does good work, and deserves to be treated/paid better for it. As well, the adjustment in schedule will allow us more time together.

Car- she keeps breaking. I can't afford to fix her right now, but the nice manager at AutoZone was my hero of the day a couple of weeks ago. I will never say another bad thing about AutoZone. That man not only fixed my car, but did it for free, with a smile, and asked for nothing in return, but that I pay it forward. While it was a simple fix, it was still one I couldn't do on my own, as I didn't understand the part.

I am planning to get a new car next year with my tax return, but if things continue the way they have been and money remains tight, I may have to wait a bit longer. We shall see.

Exroomie- She's had a rocky month, but pulled through it well. I am always amazed at her strength. A rough breakup, last minute move, and random little things really tested her sanity. I am proud of her though, as she's moving through it all with her dignity intact, and approaching each speed-bump with logic. Such a great woman!

Midas- I had to tell him about Niceguy, as I knew he'd find out sooner or later and I wanted it to come from me. They still work together, and Midas has expressed on more than one occasion that he is still very jealous. The conversation did not go well, however one a few days later appears to have cleared things up. He is fully aware of where I stand, and was able to ask all the questions he felt he needed answered. Now lets hope he doesn't forget anything again, and we have to rehash it all AGAIN. I'll be moving him in with his Father the day before I move in with Niceguy. He's not happy about it, but he'll survive. Niceguy is very anxious for me to get out of the situation with Midas, which is why I've spent the last month at his place. Things will get better soon.

Ex-husband- So for those that do not already know, he's getting married again. Sometime next year. He's marrying the same gal he's been dating since shortly after we split(yes, the one he was always complaining to me about). The divorce has been final for almost a year now, and it's weird to think of him being married to someone else. I'm happy for him though, and wish him nothing but the best of luck. We still talk on occasion, and I'm happy that we get along so well. I don't know many people that can even speak to their ex-spouse, let alone, spend an hour just talking about nothing.

Physically I'm a wreck, but for once in the last 8 months, I'm emotionally focused and feel great. I do not sleep as much as I used to, which is causing some minor concerns. I find myself falling asleep at odd moments, and having difficulty focusing. As well, the migraines are getting more frequent, and my bones/joints ache. Of course, this could be old age too.... lol Niceguy is pushing me to sleep more, and to take naps on the weekends. Hopefully I'll reach a point where 4-5 hours a day is not the norm, and I can wake up refreshed. If Niceguy gets the job he wants, we'll be on similar schedules, which will allow/force me to go to bed at a normal time.

So that was a big update with lots of things going on, and yet not really. I am most excited about the opportunities Niceguy and I have ahead of us. I love the man dearly, but the uncertainties presented will prove challenging as the days go by. So we'll see where this road goes.

I hope everyone is well, and miss you all!

Love to all!

*hugs*